I’m back…but I feel like a big phat PHONY
What’s been happenin’? Now that I’m all moved in, feeling better, and getting my life together…things are GRAND!!!! (sing a little ditty here).
I went out last night…if you can consider a jazz club in Ann Arbor on a Sunday night “out“. My homegurl B. Houston had her INDUSTRY CRUSHER MAGAZINE release party at the FIREFLY club. It went pretty well. I know I told you all when I started writing for the project. Well…to my suprise, I open the mag to the contributers page and find that I was listed as EDITOR IN CHIEF! WTF and Word Up! It’s goin’ RIGHT ON THE resume.
Here’s my issue: although I did contribute three of the six or seven articles I was in NO WAY the Editor in Chief. I played the part of consultant from time to time…offering my support as well as my opinion on things when asked. But I had no creative control over any aspect of the mag. In the literary world the E in C is the where the buck stops. They have FINAL SAY on any and everything on EVERY PAGE! I had no real editing work to do. She’d ask “How’s this look to you?” I’d say “Hmm…that looks fine to me” and that was it.
I kinda feel like now, because I’m named as E in C…I may recieve some of the glory in the even that the publication is a success…but I will also be held responsible for the outcome of the mag in the event that it is NOT the raving success that all involved pray it to be. I am open to any critisim. And that sucks… Because although I am VERY proud of my homie for accomplishing this entire thing… She put in so much work, time and money…It was not/is not MY vision.
I don’t know if I should say something to my home girl. I’m flattered that she thought enough of me to include me in such a huge capacity. As a writer…the title and resposibility of the Editor in Chief is a BIG DEAL. But I DON’T feel like IC was MY BABY. Don’t feel like I contributed (used for the third time) enough to be considered Editor in Chief and to see my name there makes me feel like a big, fat PHONY. Its over and done now…the mag is in print…There’s no turning back. Is it even worth mentioning?
What should I do Cool World?
Help a sistah out here.